Just for the hell of it......

1. What was the last thing you ate?
    Does coffee count?

2. Where was your profile picture taken?
    It's a cartoon from BuddyPoke on facebook...check it out!

3. Can you play Guitar Hero?
    I don't think I even know what that is...lol

4. Name someone who made you laugh today?
    My Baboy did earlier this morning

5. How late did you stay up last night and why?
    I think I went to bed around 2am after winding down from a busy night at work

6. If you could move somewhere else, would you?
    YES!

7. Ever been kissed under fireworks?
    Yes, New Years Eve 2003 by Little Choy

8. Which of your friends lives closest to you?
    I'm not really sure, they're aren't that many...

9. Do you believe ex's can be friends?
    Love can be a funny thing...that's all I'm saying

10. How do you feel about Dr Pepper?
    It always reminds me of a dog I had in Maine as a kid that we named 'Pepper'

11. When was the last time you cried really hard?
    Just before my grandmother passes away almost three years ago

12. Who took your profile picture?
    I did

13. Who was the last person you took a picture of?
    Aside from myself I'd have to say 'Brando' my neighbors dog in Chicago

14. Was yesterday better than today?
    It's still to early to tell

15. Can you live a day without TV?
    Yeah if I must

16. Are you upset about anything?
    I'm always upset about something, just part of life I guess

17. Do you think relationships are ever really worth it?
    Yes, No, Maybe, I don't know

18. Are you a bad influence?
    If you want me to be...LOL

19. Night out or night in?
    I don't care

20. What items could you not go without during the day?
    Coffee, Pills, Hair Glue, Toothbrush....just to name a few

21. Who was the last person you visited in the hospital?
    My Granny the day before she passed away

22. What does the last text message in your inbox say?
    That my friend should have reminded me about the comedy club he wanted to go to in Chicago a few weeks ago...silly boy!

23. How do you feel about your life right now?
    I don't know

24. Do you hate anyone?
    I don't think so, I hope I don't...they are many people that I dislike to the extreme!

25. If we were to look in your Facebook inbox, what would we find?
    Nothing interesting

26. Say you were given a drug test right now, would you pass?
    Yes, what are you testing for?

27. Has anyone ever called you perfect before?
    ROFLAMO...YEAH RIGHT!

28. What song is stuck in your head right now?
    I'm listening to Lady Gaga right now, so there are several

29. Someone knocks on your window at 2:00 a.m., who do you want it to be?
    Someone really tall, I live on the second floor

30. Want to have grandkids before you’re 50?
    Not an issue for me thank you!

31. Name something you have to do tomorrow?
    Go to the doctor

32. Do you think too much or too little?
    Oh good grief I wish I could shut off my brain, WAY TOO MUCH!

33. Do you smile a lot?
    Nope, but I try to at work

Trying to be a man - The United States Air Force -P1

Growing up as a "Military Brat" I remember more than anything telling myself that I would never be a part of the Armed Forces as an adult.  I think that for people in my position that was a common theme whereas for people in my twilight zone would have wanted to do the complete opposite.  Before I say another word I feel that I should say that I was beyond proud to serve, have the up most respect for those that have and still are serving, and have absolutetly no regret in my decision to serve my country!  My father spent over twenty years in the United States Navy and I am so proud of his choice to due so.  I have friends and family that have served in various branches and no matter how small a single job (such as mine was) may seem to the average person, it takes every single person in every single position to make it all work.....regardless of how we may feel at the time of what is and is not necessary.  For some the military is a way out of the world that they have grown up in that seems to be worthless, for others it is a true duty that they feel they must serve, and yet for others still (as it was for me) a way of  searching for direction and a way of making their father and/or mother proud.

With each generation comes an expectation of the next generation and that expectation, sadly, is based on the generation that came before them.  That always leaves someone left holding the bag and not sure what to do with it.  The wonderful thing is that with each passing generation we have learned something, whether we meant to or not.  I remember a wonderful friend from Iceland, Ricky Rynearson, whom I never would have though would be the incredible member of the Air Force that he is today.  We have sporadically kept in contact over the past twenty years and though I know very little about his life now, I do know that he has become one hell of a man! 

My journey into the military came from desperation and lack of direction, through no ones fault.  For whatever reason the years of moving around and never having stability took their toll on me and left me at an impasse of which I did not know what to do or where to go to find out.  Lest anyone should start to read this and think that I am attempting to make excuses for all the crap that is in my life, I am not, this blog started and still remains at this point, way of catching my friends, former school mates and those who give a shit up on the past twenty years of my life. 

I joined the Air Force for several reasons and the most of which was to have someone give me some direction because I did not know how to direct myself.  There are so many other aspects and emotions that have yet to be explored in my writing I find it very hard to stay focused on specifics yet I will try.  Being shy and quiet in high school I learned what I was good at, took that knowledge and still followed someone else in hopes of it all working out.  After all it always had for mom and dad.